In the process of leaving a church, there comes the day when you have to read your announcement that you are resigning. What a horrible time. It’s actually easier if there is a lot of conflict and you are being run out.
Don’t get me wrong: no sane minister likes church conflict and the prospect of leaving “under the gun” is not a pleasant one, as congregations can really get ugly when it comes to firing a minister. I like to say, “You’ve never seen a good fight till you’ve seen a church fight.” A congregation can really stick it to a minister on the way out: firing him with no notice, ruining his reputation, kicking him out of his home, cheating him out of pay, etc. It’s funny: if some of the things that I have seen churches do to ministers when hiring and firing were done by a corporation, there would be some major lawsuits.
That being said, it’s actually harder to leave a church where there is no conflict involving the minister. That’s my situation: I’m moving, but I love all the people there, have no conflict involving me, and I will miss them very much. That makes the announcement so much harder. Someone at this church told me that they felt rejected when I announced that I was leaving since I was saying that I would rather take my chances with a congregation that I don’t know rather than stay with these folks that I know and love. She’s right, you know.
It’s one of the hardest things to do, and many ministers in their career will do it a number of times. You get up before the congregation and read a sterile letter which announces that you are packing up and moving off to a new congregation. If there is a lot of conflict, you might be relieved to read this letter, even spiteful. But, if you are leaving for other reasons, it’s heart-breaking and is usually followed by shocked, stunned looks and copious tears. I think I’d almost rather have people cheer that I was leaving than to cry.
What I think is interesting is to see what happens next in regards to the reaction of the people. Some folks that you never thought you were really impacting will show that they love you very much and will miss you greatly. Some folks that you thought were behind you will reveal their true colors. But the worst is the folks who are really close to you who will react to your leaving in very negative and personal ways towards you. They will be the most hurt and will lash out against you in their pain, accusing you of abandoning your flock, or worse. I have a friend who just left his church who was chewed out by people who accused him of just short of treason for leaving his church. In a time when you are really questioning yourself, unsure about whether or not you made the right choice, that kind of reaction doesn’t help. However, I really think that those who love you the most respond this way just out of a genuine hurt…. they are like a person who just gets word that their beloved spouse is divorcing them.
On the other hand, there are some who will insist that your leaving is based on nefarious motives, usually involving “moving up” or making more money. Think about it: in the Christian Church system where the elders are the leaders, the minister leaving is a vote of “no confidence”. You are effectively saying that you have no trust in the leadership of the church. They will be scrambling to assign some reason for your leaving other than a judgment on their leadership or the state of the congregation. Therefore, the word will be that you are just leaving for more money or a bigger church. This bothers me. I’m leaving my current church for a church that is smaller in number and pays less than I am currently making. My wife is leaving a great job to start over again on the ground floor. We are giving up our dream house. We are leaving friends who we love dearly. Yet folks want to suggest that we are just leaving for selfish reasons. Why does this bother me? Because I think it hurts my witness. It is saying that all the love and attention that I gave to this flock was just based on financial considerations and that I’m willing to leave them the first time some church dangles a bigger paycheck in front of my face. It’s what Jesus says about the hired hand that doesn’t love the flock: I may be paid here, but I’m not a hired hand, I really do love these sheep. It’s funny, in the 60 years that this church has been in existence they have never had a minister stay more than 6 years, yet they insist that every minister has just left because of more money or because they saw this church as a “stepping stone.” I’m sorry, honey, but if you’ve been married five times, it might not be the guy… I guess it’s just easier to imply that the minister is a money-grubbing career-ladder-climber than to figure out what’s wrong with the congregation.
And it’s the final reaction that really tears me up: those who really love you and respect you who will be hurt by your leaving. The sad thing is, the people that you are leaving because of are rarely the ones who will miss you the most. If you have poor leaders or divisive people, they will not be crying when you leave. Instead, the ones crying will be the quiet, hard-working, dedicated people who were fed by your teaching, preaching and leading. Nobody should be at a church just because of the preacher, yet it is nice if you can go to a church and hear a message from a man who loves you and loves God. Those are the ones you hate to leave.
All in all, announcing that you are leaving a church is a lot like telling your spouse that you want a divorce. It’s either hard because you have been fighting for a while, or hard because everything seems well until the announcement. I hope that I never have to make that announcement again and just pray that the next place will be the place where I retire.
Any of you readers out there have any stories to share of similar feelings? Please, leave a comment.
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